Dear you!!

Ey, it passed the new year of 2008 already! Jeez, I know I’m this damn ass to play my fingers around with the entire blog, that I’ve been ignored transferring the whole ideas of my abso-fuckin-lutely life to this scrap.

Well, to tell the truth, I’ve been in a new relationship. Not totally new, I reckon. I think the relationship was already there, but we just didn’t realize it. Bottom line, I’m seeing someone these days, but not physically. It just happened last October 2007, when he decided to visit me for the third times. Meanwhile back then, I didn’t recognize his whole ideas of coming here. Rather than, I was amazed with the commitment that actually came from used-to-be a non commitment guy...hahaha! (No heart feeling, babe) Well, I guess I just need to round my clock all over again. There’s nothing wrong with a so called “new” relationship, right? Rather this way, than just bumping into unknown parties and end up the next morning lying on some strangers' beds. That’s kinda spooky actually, and thank God...it never happens.

I’ve been rerun “Sex and The City” episodes. Actually, this is just an extra episodes to the never ending Takuya Kimura series, hahaha =D. Love Carrie Bradshaw and all her ideas there. There was one episode when she mentioned about being single. “Is being single freaking out a woman? Are we born to have our own partner?”

The ideas of being single (as me practically, where he is still trying to finish his school), sometimes cannot be handle by mostly women in the city. I just noticed that for man, to be single at our age, is something he doesn’t be ashamed of. Really…take a look at my guy friends who actually enjoying their late 20s being single. Nothing to worry about, enjoying their works and life they want to. But take an example of single woman around my age. Being single at our age is something that most women are afraid of. Seriously, guys will always ask something like…”what are you doing on your spare time without partner?” Well, for me that is nothing to be ashamed of. I don’t care what people think of me walking alone in the mall, or trying to indulge myself alone on a night spa, or just crying out loud over Takuya Kimura’s series. I know he’s not here yet because of his responsibility for his study. But there will be time for us to be together again. And when that time comes, I’ll be one of the luckiest person in this world who always believe that we are born to have our own partner =)